Things I question…

Am I giving Ali enough stimulation?
Is mom going to pull through?
Are we where we are suppose to be?
Are we ever going to sell our condo?
Are we ever going to pay off our student loans?
Is Robs mom okay? Is she happy?
Is aliya going to stay on the right path as she get older?
Am I praying enough?
Are my parents going to be okay.. are they ever going to be stress free?
Is Rob going to be happy with his job?
Am I ever going to be skinny again?
Am I a good enough friend… for that matter, Am I a good enough wife, mother, daughter, sister, granddaughter, niece, ect..?
Is Aliya happy?
Is Adam behaving ?
Should I take my damn boards?
Are we making the best choices for our family?
What more should I be doing?
Will we be able to have more children?
Will Ali stay healthy and safe?
Will Ali ever sleep through the night?
Will she ever eat any food worth mentioning?
Will I ever cook anything other than dar and kidney bean sak?
Will I loose interest in blogging, they way I do with all my hobbies?
Its so tough to contemplate all these issues but as I review the list I realize that most of these things are totally out of my control and there is no right answer to them. The answers are like looking in a dessert case, they all look so good but which will taste the best? The napoleon with layers of chocolate, raspberries and cream or the chocolate croissant, flaky and warm with the sweet dark chocolate slightly melted inside or the apple purse in pastry where it is all so chewy with a slight crunch when you bite into the fruit. Which one do you pick? Which will be the most satisfying and fulfilling? Its so hard to choose. Well I suppose this answers one question, I don’t think I will ever be skinny again.