Inspiration

I have been inspired and not in the cliché meaning of the word but in its truest sense. I have actually changed. It isn’t often that you are truly inspired by something, something that actually changes you and the way you live. In the past few months I have been inspired 3 times. I wish I could tell you some heartfelt story that inspired me or some touching person who reached out to me but unfortunately my inspirations are not so deep. I’ll start with an art piece I saw at the St Petersburg Museum of Art on free meusum day. It was a collage of thousands of torn pieces of tissue paper that created an amazing art work of a woman standing with an apple in her hand in front of a red backdrop. It was like nothing I have ever seen. I even contact the artist to see what other work she had and if any was for sale. Well, with a price tag of $16,000 per piece I thought I’d better just admire it from far. See her work here. By the way, the work is infinitely better in person where you can see the fibers of the tissue, its really amazing. Well, seeing her art work inspired me to get back into art, not that I was ever really ‘in’ art to begin with but I have always done something artistic, maybe not well, but at least I was trying. I have tried my hand in painting (acrylic on canvas and water color), pottery, poetry, scrapbooking (questionable if really an art form), knitting, photography, quilting, sewing, writing and now blogging (another questionable art form) and my favorite, organizing (definite art form!) Ever since 2005 when we left for med school I fell of the wagon and stopped doing anything artistic. After seeing her art piece I instantly was awakened and can’t wait to get back into it and create.

My second inspiration came from a blog I read about a photographer who is also a mother of 3 beautiful girls. She is one of the best writers I have ever read. When I read her words I am instantly transported into her life and its magical. She is an amazing mother and photographer, both things I strive to be. Her writing has inspired me to be a better mother, have more patients and take better pictures. Oh, and to write. I’m sure you have notice the blog has transformed a bit and become a place for me to write and share my thoughts.

My final inspiration is from Kate Moss, I know. I can’t believe it either, with all the inspirational people in the world it was Kate Moss who inspired me, the crack head, druggie anorexic supermodel. Weird, I know. I struggle with controlling my appetite and I have made a quote she said my mantra for weight loss. “Nothing tastes as good as it feels to be skinny.” For some reason it stuck with me. Now when I walk into the pantry I channel my inner Kate Moss and walk away. Going to school and learning about all the health risks of excess weight did nothing for me, no, but Kate Moss well she got me. By the way, who ever said breastfeeding helps with weight loss lied. I have gained more weight these last eight months I have been breastfeeding. I don’t think I am eating all that much and I am eating for 2 since Aliya eats nothing else and yet still gaining weight, explain that.