from 5 generations to 4

Maa died today. That's all there is to say really. She was old and lived a long life. We were once a family that spanned 5 generations but today that legacy ended. I feel okay, I guess. I am not sure what to feel. She was old, 92. She was ready to pass and said so herself. So it was like an answer to her prayers and for that I am happy. I think I am more sad for the people here who are left to grieve. My grandmother in particular. She lost her mom, that I can not understand. How can a person survive on this earth without their mom. I need mine like I need air. My great grandmother had a hard life but she was wise and strong and lucid until the end. She was a young widow left with a small child, my grandmother, and she remarried into a hard life. 13 kids when it was all said and done, immigration to new foreign lands, and a life with much sorrow but she made it through and worked hard. She was so smart and pulled her large family with her overwhelming strength of courage and sharp mind. She married off all her children and made sure they were all doing well, she left no one behind. And I sit here with her great-great granddaughter, Aliya, and beem with pride at the legacy she has left behind.
Cinkly maa my brother called her from her multitude of hard earned wrinkles.
Crinkly maa, I am sorry I didn't see you in the end. I will remember you always. Thank you for the prayers and love. I know you prayed for me and my family daily and for that I will always be indebted to you. I wish your life had been easier but your sacrifice has helped to place our family where it is today. I know your soul is at peace and has become one with God. I am thankful you have left us to be in a place of peace. I will pray for you, though you need not my prayers.